Peace of Mind is Beautiful
You can train your mind to be happy. It takes work. Not money
It is a learning process. I am still learning but I put this out here to be an example and for you to know you aren't alone.
I am frustrated. I don't know where to start man. My life has been hell. It can't have been for nothing. I have survived my whole life. I want to live. This all seems like its going no where. I am just in a bad mood. I am all about spreading light and love. Some days I am just drained and people drain me. People love to argue and fight. I try so hard to keep peace without taking sides. I think I don't have the patience man. I need to find a way to release anger safely. If I don't I may explode. I really need to meditate. I know that I need to be still and keep being better everyday. I need to trust that things are going to get better. I need to clear my mind and trust that I am exactly where I need to be right now. Sometimes I want to quit, but something won't let me. Like why tf do I need to be the example. I didn't ask for this shit. I just can't let everything I have been through be for nothing. I also can't let my daughters life be for nothing and with that being said. I won't quit ever. But I will not let this take my good energy away. I will not let this stop being fun. I will never ever quit painting, laughing, dancing and loving. I will also never stop trying to learn people and trying to learn how to communicate without anger. It gets us nowhere and It only hurts ourselves. All we are doing by fighting is hurting ourselves. You don't have to prove any point to anyone. I would fight all damn day long and night and my blood pressure almost killed me. That goddamned stroke wasn't even nessesary. I did that shit to myself. I won't do that to me again. If i had another stroke, it wouldn't be because I caused it. Because I am at peace. Or I will be after I get this crap out. Really need to release anger. I have to figure it out. Ok till next time and even if noone is listening, there will be a next time, because I have no idea how to quit and I don't want to know. ok ttfn.
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AuthorMy name is Tera. After not living my whole life, I decided I wanted to live and have fun and to make other people happy. That is my goal. To spread love. LIGHT LOVE HOPE Its never too late to love. Archives
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