Peace of Mind is Beautiful
You can train your mind to be happy. It takes work. Not money
It is a learning process. I am still learning but I put this out here to be an example and for you to know you aren't alone.
I need to keep a journal. I felt like I was losing touch with reality and here lately I have been worried again that I might eventually. I feel like thats what althstimers is. That its someone that has an overactive imagination and eventually stops giving a fuck what anyone thinks of them and gets lost in there own mind. Why because they wasnt allowed to feel it when they had a grasp on it for fear of people judging them. Mother Fuckers just wont listen to a dumb southern bitch that cant spell and curses all the time and smokes weed. So any wisdom I have gained from real fucking experience is gone. No you want my Godamned opinion, this is how it comes. I cant explain myself without cursing because this is what the world made me. Hard. Hard as hell and if you cant see past the hardness to get to the truth then go somewhere where the people talk all nice and happy and giddy and you think you know a thing and you have no fucking idea what its really like. Stop looking to fake son of a bitches and learn from someone who has withstood the goddamned fire. Hell. Ive been there, Still coming out, but I will never conform to make you comfortable. Im not bad, not evil, not an asshole, but I am broken and you could learn a lot from broken people. People who have been through unimaginable things. People who cant spell but can tell you things that make your life a little bit better. someone who has been through hell so they curse. Someone high af will not lie to you. They wil, freely give you their opinion. Free af anwers but because they are staring into space and using their mind instead of trying to impress you, you think they are crazy or just brush them off. They are trying to tell you things to help you because they have been through it and they dont want you to hurt. But you wont listen because they arent refined as you. Go through one day of their lives and you will be crying begging for them to help. YOU DONT LISTEN. you dont pay attention to these people who are in the fire and dont want you to burn. And then people who dont know what to do tell you to pray. Let a mother fucker just talk. without telling them pray. They are trying to get things out to you. Let us talk. They need to get it out so they dont fester and just really dont care anymore. Let us talk. We want to heal the world, but no one is listening. I know this isnt fluid or have any paragraphs or punctuations or the spelling is horrible. BUt I have to get it out this way. fast or I cant. I am also high. I am and it just has to come out or it stays inside and festers and makes me feel like I am a bad person. When I get it out I realize I am not. I just can not and will not ever keep my shit in again. It festers and turns into physical desiese. I KNOW THAT AINT SPELLED RIGHT. I dont care. This is for people who are in the fire and need someone to talk without being scared of ridicule. I DO NOT GIVE A FUCK. I will speak my non spelling, cursing, southern ass mind. Its up to you wether you want to get through the bullshit to learn anything from it. Thanks for reading if you made it this far. lol Have a beautiful gotdamned day yall.
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AuthorMy name is Tera. After not living my whole life, I decided I wanted to live and have fun and to make other people happy. That is my goal. To spread love. LIGHT LOVE HOPE Its never too late to love. Archives
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