Peace of Mind is Beautiful
You can train your mind to be happy. It takes work. Not money
It is a learning process. I am still learning but I put this out here to be an example and for you to know you aren't alone.
I have trigiminal nuralgia. It is a chronic facial pain disease. It is from the stroke and it sucks. My face feels like it is on fire. It burns. I feel like I need to run away from the pain, but the pain just follows. It is as if the death of my daughter is on my face. Its the worst pain anyone can feel according to nuerologist. I will be ok. In these moments though, I feel like i just can't. This disease is called the suicide disease because people who have it cant take it so they do the only thing they can to escape it. During an attack one time i thought just cut your wrist it wont hurt as bad as your face. I am not suicidal. But my face is unbearable sometimes. It is easing up. It is scary when something can make you think things like that when otherwise you wouldn't. Ive been stressed out because I dont think I have sold any paintings. Stress brings it on. I am trying to survive and heal the only way I can. I don't know. I know Ill be ok. I always am, but I need to write these things out also to heal. Hopefully one day someone will find value in my words. And my art. I feel like it will be after I die. I would like to at least see it happen. would validate everything I have been through and done. I need something big to happen. Come on universe.
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I am excited and also terrified. Theres nothing to fear, but fear itself. I will not let my fear stop me from trying every possible way to become the person I have always meant to be. I am a worrier, if I didnt spell that right, Im TRYING. lol I am strong and I do not quit and I am trying to tell the world my story, because I love myself now and I will not quit because of other peoples opinion of me. I will not ever stop evolving me. Never, will I turn my back on me again and I will work until the day I die to leave this world a better place because I love people. I love everything and I know the future can be better. It starts with yourself. I didnt know how to love myself. But I am accomplishing things and I will never stop. I love you all. Who ever is reading this. I love you and dont ever quit. Scream your pain at the world and watch it change. Face it, embrace it and love it. Dont push that part of yourself away. Get comfortable with it so comfortable that it gets easier and easier to deal with and then you see the lessons in it and begin to love that part of you and the part that you are fighting is the part that needs healing and love. STop hiding from yourself. Stop hiding from everybody. Start living and loving. Every person is a reflection of yourself. What you dont like about them is probably something you cant stand about yourself. You will start to see you in others and not want to hurt any living thing. it all comes from loving yourself. Now I have strength and peace of mind. I wont stop. htt:https://www.artimpactinternational.org/tera-nicole-hurst//www.artimpactinternational.org/tera-nicole-hurst
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AuthorMy name is Tera. After not living my whole life, I decided I wanted to live and have fun and to make other people happy. That is my goal. To spread love. LIGHT LOVE HOPE Its never too late to love. Archives
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