Peace of Mind is Beautiful
You can train your mind to be happy. It takes work. Not money
It is a learning process. I am still learning but I put this out here to be an example and for you to know you aren't alone.
I have trigiminal nuralgia. It is a chronic facial pain disease. It is from the stroke and it sucks. My face feels like it is on fire. It burns. I feel like I need to run away from the pain, but the pain just follows. It is as if the death of my daughter is on my face. Its the worst pain anyone can feel according to nuerologist. I will be ok. In these moments though, I feel like i just can't. This disease is called the suicide disease because people who have it cant take it so they do the only thing they can to escape it. During an attack one time i thought just cut your wrist it wont hurt as bad as your face. I am not suicidal. But my face is unbearable sometimes. It is easing up. It is scary when something can make you think things like that when otherwise you wouldn't. Ive been stressed out because I dont think I have sold any paintings. Stress brings it on. I am trying to survive and heal the only way I can. I don't know. I know Ill be ok. I always am, but I need to write these things out also to heal. Hopefully one day someone will find value in my words. And my art. I feel like it will be after I die. I would like to at least see it happen. would validate everything I have been through and done. I need something big to happen. Come on universe.
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AuthorMy name is Tera. After not living my whole life, I decided I wanted to live and have fun and to make other people happy. That is my goal. To spread love. LIGHT LOVE HOPE Its never too late to love. Archives
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