Peace of Mind is Beautiful
You can train your mind to be happy. It takes work. Not money
It is a learning process. I am still learning but I put this out here to be an example and for you to know you aren't alone.
There are so many things to worry about. I have ran out of just about everything I own. Im watching things dwindling away. Ran out of canvases. Used up almost all of my paint. Colors in my paintings are starting to be weird. Ok weirder. I think that maybe you could tell if an artist was out of some color by the colors they chose. Like im painting purple clouds and blue donkeys lol. Anyway maybe theres way more meaning in a painting than you know. I have a credit card that wont stop calling me. I have normal everyday problems too. I am just so sick of barely even making it when I know I am so much more and I could inspire. I get tired. I cry and then I feel like everything will be ok. It always has been. It will be. Its ok. I am ok at this moment. Things could definetly be a lot worse. So so so so so much worse. I am Good.
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When I paint. I am concentrating on the art. I am listening to music. I am becoming one. I am dissolving. I am becoming freer. The words problems dissipate. They are no longer important. I am clearing my mind. I am just me. I just am. I am. To be or not to be. I chose to be. I chose to be the best me ever. I want everyone who ever doubted me to watch. I want them to see. Maybe there way of thinking isn't right. Maybe its just a fight. I am a fighter. Problems lifting. Clear thoughts come in. A presence comes in. I feel it. Its light. Its also primal. Its passionate. Its love. So no matter how much I want to prove people wrong about me. Its me just proving me wrong over and over. Its me challenging me to be better. Its me evolving. I finally love me. I am strong. I am beautiful. I have been underestimated my whole life. Its what I needed to survive. I like someone underestimating me. It is fuel to my fire. My fire burns bright.
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AuthorMy name is Tera. After not living my whole life, I decided I wanted to live and have fun and to make other people happy. That is my goal. To spread love. LIGHT LOVE HOPE Its never too late to love. Archives
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