Peace of Mind is Beautiful
You can train your mind to be happy. It takes work. Not money
It is a learning process. I am still learning but I put this out here to be an example and for you to know you aren't alone.
I smoke the hell outta weed, I do. Its helped me to bring out whats in my head so that I can heal. I'm not gonna go through the whole blahblah sob story, but basically I have been to a real hell. A hell in my mind. The hell that everyone seems to be trapped in. The hell that makes you anxious. the hell that makes you scared. The hell that makes you feel like a mess of a person trapped in a fucking box and no one sees you and no one listens because they just know they are right and you need help. The hell that keeps you remembering the past. keeps the trauma popping up in your head despite you having to do shit. the little thing that people notice that you really don't want them too. Call me mentally ill all you want but I finally understand how to be free from the hell that was my mind. Now I can be clear in here and I can finally listen. I see myself in so many broken people. I just want to spread a little light so that you can spread your own unique light. If you want to know more, I have more journal posts. Also check out my nut job paintings, which in reality came from meditation, chakras .Opening up the energy in your body. Oh and Weed and Tool. Healing and purging my emotions. Bringing in the good energy and letting out the bad. Bad energy stagnates. We have good energy all around to bring into our bodies and souls. Stop and smell the gotdamned roses. Because that is a positive sensation that builds positive chemicals in your brain. Positive chemicals turn into positive behaviors. Positive behaviors heal you. Bring in the positive and kick or scream or cry out the negative. Deep cry. Those crys you used to have as a kid where you just couldn't keep your eyes open. Cry yourself to sleep again. see if it isnt the best sleep you've had in a while. And be concious (don,t care, i do but im in the zone) be concious of things going on. conciously chose the good energy and purge the negative, until you can listen and observe and learn, Observe and be aware of what you are doing. I did't know that most of my problems was because of me. Like with my mom, I still have a hard time talking to her, but all those knock down drag out fights was because I could have walked away but I tried to prove myself who can't see. I could have just walked away. I didn't have to listen. I see where and how I went wrong in so many situations. But It did go wrong. My whole life went wrong because i hid my emotions from myself and I chose the negative energy over positive. Its simple. Cry like a baby when you need to. Just because your grown doesnt mean you dont need to cry. You didn't lose your tear ducts at 17. They there still for a reason. Use them. Free yourself so you can love. Is anyone Listening? I hope so. It doesnt matter. This is mainly for me to continue to heal. If you have heard me, let me know. TTFN
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AuthorMy name is Tera. After not living my whole life, I decided I wanted to live and have fun and to make other people happy. That is my goal. To spread love. LIGHT LOVE HOPE Its never too late to love. Archives
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